wrestlingdiva

So its been a while...

I been busy, work, work and more work.

I am currently in the process of opening my own horse training, and riding lessons business, I have decided to call it "Horse Sense" as long as ulster county allows me to do so...

That means a monday trip to kingston, and we are doing lunch at SONIC!!!! Oh sonic how I miss thee, its been 7 long years without cheesy tots, greasy blts on texas toast, and my cherry limeaid.

If I have not informed the masses, I also now have a horse. His name is Code of Honor, or "Cody". Hes a little shit, but I love him. I am currently in the process of re-training him, as whoever previously owned him, cowboyed him around, and really never properly educated him. Hes a bit wacky, and all he wants to do is run! So we have been cow sorting, and practicing barrel racing... So far so good. I also ride him english, but have yet to try and jump him... I don't think I am going to try that until I feel secure with him on the ground in the round pen.

He has a lot of issues to overcome, but its cool being able to work with my own horse again.

So yeah... I am back to training horses, giving beginner lessons, and I also Volunteer for Equine Rescue Resource, which is where I got Cody from.

So thats my update now... more to come.

So here is a story for the ages...

This is going to be posted on all my social sites, starting with LJ, so sorry if you end up seeing it multiple times!

I have decided to share something very personal with all of you, here goes!

My father died suddenly when I was almost 4. He and my mother were never married, nor did his family ever know of my existence. The reason being was his parents were pretty religious, and did not like my mother, and she wanted it that way at the time. She felt one set of overbearing grandparents were enough for the time. I was their little secret. My father did spend time with me when I was young, but he and my mother never continued a relationship as more than friends. He married a girl named Thea, who I also remember. She was always very sweet to me.

As a child, I never knew he was my father, or was too young to understand the circumstances. Plus as we all know I have a big mouth and always have, so maybe my mother decided not to let me in on it as she didn't want to hear it from her parents.

I didn't find out who my father was until I was a teenager, but since he has passed, and as far as my mother knew, his family had moved away, and Thea had vanished, there was no link. As I got older I questioned more and more, and got bits and pieces of information, as it tended to be a rough subject for my mom. (and I lived with my grandparents since shortly after his death) At 20, it occured to me to ask where he was buried, and found he was not buried, but spread at the cliffs, and the stone church, my favorite places on earth. I then understood why I always felt a very special connection to those places.

So I posted stuff online, all over the place, seaching for information about the family. Through record searches I found his date of birth, date of death, and social security information. With this information, I gave it to an internet company, that was pretty much a rip off, they charged me $150 and told me he had no living relatives, yet another dead end.

I never fully gave up the search, I kept questioning, and posting things online from time to time, as many know I have also done this to try and find my sister who was given up for adoption. (no luck there either)

Recently I came into touch with an old boyfriend, through the guy I am currently datings sister, as they went to school together. I added him to my facebook about 2-3 weeks ago.

A couple of days ago I got a message on facebook, from a man named Jimmy Dietrich, asking if I was related to my uncle Howie. The name instantly threw me for a loop, as that was my fathers last name! (i have my mothers name) So I told him yes, Howie is my moms brother, and that my mother was named Beatrice, basically baiting him, and not coming out directly with any kind of questioning, as I was curious, but not holding my breath for any information. Jimmy came back with, Oh I know her, she dated my brother Eddie! When I got this email, I almost passed out.

This is my UNCLE! My fathers brother? No freaking way! AND he lives near me, in fact less than 1/4 a mile from my mother! So I told him, yes I knew that, as he was my father... Which in turn totally blew his mind, as he has been on a never ending quest to find out if in fact Eddie had ever fathered any children!

He instantly told me I looked like him, and I did believe this to a point, as I do look a lot like my mother, but have a lot of unique features that no one in my family possess.

Last night I went to Uncle Jimmy's house, and he told me so much, and showed me photos. WOW. There is no question.

Uncle Jimmy has also got me in touch with my Aunt Sherry in Cali, and her daughter Angela, who lives acrossed the river!

So it has finally happened! I found my fathers family, and have found out so much, but its only the beginning. I have tons of relatives! My grandmother on that said was the youngest of 11 children, and her older sister is 94, and is living down in florida.

I am completely floored, the past few days have been surreal. I am looking forward to meeting everyone, and getting to know more about my other side.

So yeah. I am now a huge fan of facebook, even bigger than before.

What really amazes me is Uncle Jimmy lived on Awosting Rd, right down the road from me towards the end of me living there! He knows my childhood best friend through my ex, and our paths must have crossed a million times.

Life is really funny sometimes.

So this is it for now... I don't know what else to write at this point, but wanted to share my story with all of you.

So I haven't been updating this as much as I planned... Work gets in the way.

I am currently working 5-6 days a week. I put in 3-4 at the restaurant, and 2-3 at the farm. Plus going to the gym when I can... and surprise surprise, hit up training on Saturday morning for the first time in almost a year.

I pretty much decided to cut wrestling off, I am going to do a little stuff, for certain people only, as I am not able to deal with the stupid crap that comes from putting 100% of myself into it anymore. I am too busy with work, and life to care about such needless drama.

Work is going well, I am happy to be back in the kitchen, even if I can only express a portion of how I like to work and create. Plus working at the farm is awesome as I get to ride at least twice a week, and am taking english lessons. I am finally starting to feel comfortable riding english, as it is so different. Tomorrow I switch horses for lessons to a slightly smaller horses who seems to have a more comfortable gait then the huge TB I have been riding. Should be fun. I rode him today for a little while, as in the nice weather we are having we decided to do an impromtu trail ride.

So alas I am sore as hell. Bumping on sat beat the hell out of me, then working at the restaurant, losing an hour only to have to be at the farm early yesterday was quite the ordeal... back to the farm in the morning for lessons, and a little work.

So thats it for now!

I am not keeping up with this as much as I want. Too tired I guess.

I been working a lot, between the two jobs I work close to 60 hours a week. We have also been trying to go to the gym more. We went yesterday, and I kicked Mikes butt, even though I wasn't half as hard on him as I used to be on blueimber  He is all sore this morning, but we plan on going back again. He is going out for a position with the Sullivan County Sheriffs department. If he really wants it he has to do what I tell him to get into shape, as there will be plenty of competition that is already able to complete the requirements, then some.

Between riding, and working out, hopefully my butt will be in better shape. I am not exactly where I want to be, but getting there. My love of food is so hard to overcome, plus with working in the kitchen I don't eat all day and am starving by the end of the night.

And Mozzerella sticks are not my friend! heh

So at the end of the month I am going to the firemans formal with Mike, so yesterday before the gym we had to stop by the mall, and I popped into macys, found two dresses, one was 20, and the other was on a rack that said 20, but it was marked 70, well with mikes help I got it for 20! So two new dresses, one purple (i picked out) one red (He picked out) I am going to wear the red one for the dinner I think.

So yeah thats about it for now... going to go shower, then off to the gym again!

This snow is driving me crazy. Today I was supposed to head up to MA to wrestle, but 8-10 inches said no freaking way, as my and the lack of upkeep on 84 do not mix.

So work called, asked if I wanted to work... hell yeah money! Then they called and said no work, we are closing for the evening.

Boo! What heels.

Its coming down like crazy outside, I would guess we have a little over an inch already, and the storm is just starting to pick up.

So I sit, and try to figure out how to make my wonderful creation of the night, as I do not have all the ingredients I would like to stuff my pork chops, I will have to be creative and figure out another way to create a flavorful and edible stuffing out of what I have available. I refer to this as "Ghetto Gourmet"

I am slowly building a good base of product for use but I think I may have to brave the storm before it gets too bad and go to hannaford to get a few things, as I do not believe I have eggs...

And for everyones knowledge Hannaford sucks, its waaaay too expensive!

Oh so my new job, its pretty pimp, and if everything works out (cross your fingers for me please) I will have my OWN KITCHEN!

I am working at a long time fairly famous venue in the area, I don't want to name it just yet, but basically we have a very simple menu, and everything else is my choice! I can make any specials I want! How awesome is that?

Honestly its like a dream come true. I am so happy, and really hope this works out, as this is something I have wanted for a long time.

Oh and yes I still work at the horse farm, gonna keep that one, as I love the horses, and get the opportunity to ride whenever I want.

So today I got to ride a horse.

I work at a barn as a groom, and some of the horses need riding so I offered. It got accepted, but the catch: I have to ride English! Until today its been YEARS since I really rode in an English saddle, and oh its gonna take a little getting used to!

The horse I rode is a 17 hand, 17 year old Thoroughbred, ex race horse, and boy does he like to move. I felt quite comfortable on him, however holding him at a posting trot was nearly impossible!

I did show my boss I am a pretty capable rider, as he spooked when some snow fell off the arena roof (its an indoor and the snow crashed down outside the wall as I passed) and I handled him, circled and brought him back to the spot where it happened.

Luckily she does not believe in super short stirrups to ride as that would have killed me. I hate having my knees up to my chin! (lol)

She told me I could ride him, and two other horses whenever I wanted, which is awesome, and there are a couple of younger ones that need some ground work, so I am going to be lunging them to knock some of the kookyness out.

It feels awesome to be back in the saddle again!

I am going to try and write more in this journal, as I have been neglecting it.

Currently I am looking for more work, I am working on a horse farm as a groom, and love it, but it just wont pay the bills.

I am waiting to hear back from this company that does car interiors, they are looking for sewing machine operators, which I am am pretty good at. I think I would love, as I enjoy sewing and crafts.

As fas wrestling goes I been taking time off. I do not want to deal with the drama, I want to have fun! When it lacks in that department, I lose interest. I am in talks with a few people to do a few shows, which I will announce if/when they happen.

My latest interest is green building technologies. I have been watching a new channel called Planet Green, which has a lot of great information packed into it. I think if more people learned and worked with the technologies they are currently perfecting, we could really benefit financially and environmentally! These technologies add quite a bit to the current job market, its all in learning how they work, and how to implement them.

I been bugging the guy I been dating to get into this as I really think he would be great at it, and he would be one of the few in the area to implement these types of technologies.

I'm living back in my hometown, and it is so bizarre. Being here makes me remember what I do hate about living in a small town. But I do love it, the mountain, the woods, the small bits of open space left. Its is scary to see how much development has gone on in the area but how many empty houses there are, both new and old.

So in other news, I started going to the gym again, and am once again attempting to quit smoking. My patches should be here soon, I hope.

So yeqah I guess thats it for now... gonna chill out and watch the boob tube for a bit as I have to get up early to work.

So...

I been busy as hell lately. I decided to help my friend Jim run the Halloween Haunt at the Walker Valley Fire House this year. Its been 7-8 years since they last did a Haunted House.

This year its back, and bigger than ever! We wrapped the entire pavilion in black plastic, then divided it into 16x20 rooms.

We also set up a childrens room in the community room inside the fire house, and will have a small bonfire and ghost stories outside next to our "witches cemetery"

This event will be held on the 24th and 25th from 5-10 PM at the Walker Valley Fire House on RT 52 in Walker Valley NY. (between Pine Bush and Ellenville before you head up the mountain)

Its FREE, there will also be low cost refreshments, and an awesome raffle with some seriously cool prizes, so it is an event not to be missed.

Other than this, I haven't been doing too much, Our last AWESOME show of the year got cancelled due to logistics, and lack of support from the venue.

We have also been having problems with certain people sent from a competing company that is trying to destroy us. No matter how hard they try they are not taking us down. The fight is on!

DWOW was supposed to make a return, well partial, but things didn't work out for that event, so I am sure something wicked is in the works.

And apparently I am doing some charity show next week in CT... Still waiting on the details Mr. Blanski!

I guess thats it for now... check out my pretty flyer I made for the event, and if you are somewhat local, come check it out!

Hi everyone...

So here is the latest from the greatest...

Been doing promo model work, pimping booze at bars. Its fun, and pays well.

Wrestling... well i am keeping it simple. I pretty much quit the traveling around to all over the fucking place for little to no pay. I work for AWESOME, as talent, and as Director of Operations, which basically means, I manage the show itself on show day, and help to prep for the show.

If any of my wrestling lady friends in the tri-state area would like to work with us PLEASE let me know, as we need women.

We run mostly out of the Toms River/Seaside area of NJ but do shows all over the state.

As far as real life goes... well things are ok, I got wheels, even if I need new motor mounts, I got a roof over my head, food in my belly... and I think I have someone who actually gives a shit.

So yeah... thats it for now. Hope everyone is doing good out there!

AWESOME WAS AWESOME.

Had fun, it was great to see everyone, meet new friends, yell at little brats.

Next shows are sept 20th at the bllomfield street fair, and sept 27th in toms river

www.awesomewrestlingonline.com for details.

So right now I baby sit all day for the guy I been dating. His daughter is cute, shes 2, and apparently the doctor says shes as smart as a 3 year old.

We read, watch spongebob, play with my laptop, go outside for walks, color, whatever entertains her for the moment. Its fun, but I need more money. So I went out for another job doing liquor promotions, as the first I had wasn't giving me any local jobs. This new one, I already found 3, waiting to hear back from my manager on how to get the paperwork to her. I think I start next week.

I also restarted my graphic design biz, but will now be offering marketing and event planning and management. I have a lot of cool ideas, and with help from one of my friends I think we can do something really cool.

As far as wrestling is concerned, real life has to take priority right now, so I am only working a few select places. My main promotion right now is AWESOME, as I am not only talent, but I help with promotions, production, and overall show management. I just hope we can keep this company running as it has major potential that I don't think all parties have realized.

Plus this promotion is an important step in my plan for world domination.

So yeah that's about it. If you need web banners, or any kind of logo, or design let me know, or if you are running an event, and need help from a planning professional, I am your woman!

Peace!

Last week I lost a good friend to a motorcycle accident. Not only was he my friend, but he was my best friends uncle.

He died at 37, left behind a 16 year old son, and 17 year old daughter. His son was living with him at the time, and his daughter lives with her mothers mom.

The entire week was an emotional blur, as I spent most of it with the family, compiling photos, and just trying to stay sane.

What gets me about this whole thing, is the family members (brothers, sisters, mother) who took charge, (and took money that was raised for his burial) were so disrespectful not only to his memory, but to his children, and the other family and friends he was close to. It was disgusting.

They managed to offend most of the family... Leaving my friends step mom (his sister he was closest to) at a gas station, spelled his daughters name wrong, and listed her as a step daughter at the end of the obit, said rude things to my friend, that she wasn't part of the family.
And even more rude comments to the grandchildren, and other extended family and friends.

They took the money and got him a paupers grave in a prestigious cemetery, for as much money as it would have cost to bury him here in town with a headstone. His son is pissed, his ex is suing them.

The funeral was hard, then they had an luncheon at one of the bars he hung out at. NONE of the local family wanted to go or be there. We went for his kids... Me and crys showed up late, said hi, grabbed the kids and a few family members and we had a secret VIP at her parents house. Only the cool family was invited, and his kids, and their mom.

Us "kids" me crys, her bro and his girl, the son and daughter, another cousin, her bf and oddly enough her bfs dad who had hooked the parents up to begin with, went to the mountains to a secret little swimspot we have.

The kids needed it, we needed it, and thats what Sean loved to do.

I hadn't seen him since he and buddy had moved out of crystals parents, and had called him when I got my fishing license to ask when he wanted to go.

So yeah... Its been quite the week. Just needed to get this off my chest. If your a personal friend you can see the video from the swim spot on my personal myspace... you will be jealous!

Working a lot.

Life is interesting...

yep.

Early Happy Birthday to Lynne!

I mean I am posting from my phone you pervs! Anyhow here's what I have been up to... I went up to quincy mass on saturday for the NECW Iron 8. It was definatly a great show. Not onlybwas the wrestling great but I also got to catch up with friends and meet some cool new people. For all of you who have not seen bulldog blanski recently, well you may have and just walked right past as many did. Utter confusion as the change is dramatic, and I am very proud of him. Didn't see much of the ct crew though Barry did come out and watch the show with us. The MA crew is pretty cool. I am sorry no bar hopping, but I was driving... Maybe next time. Today I scored a part time job pimping liquor... I am stoked. I love booze;-) unfortunatly I don't get to drink it... But I do get to make or create drinks with it! This is sooooo much better than any of my other promo modeling jobs have been. I can also travel to the city or philly with it as well so there is an excuse to see more of my friends! So that's it... And even with the qwerty keyboard its pretty hard to type on this phone. Otherwise I love it!

Go to Urbandictionary.com and type in your answer to each question in the search box, then write the definition it gives you.

1) Your name?
Elizabeth

The Queen. A woman of great power, intellectual ability, and loyalty. Beautiful, compassionate, and chaste. Originally from Hebrew "promised to God."
Elizabeth I of England reigned from 1558 - 1603.




2) Nickname?
Bitch

A woman that doesn't give a flying f*ck anymore and that can and will be cruel to men.
Im always a bitch to assholes like you and by the way im proud to be a bitch



3) Your Car?
Buick

A pretty badass car that Is reliable and a tank.Often Gets confused with Caddilac and or Police car.I've had 2 of them ran one into another car and 2 people didnt even realize it.Nicknames include but are not limited to "Land Yacht" "Marios M1" "Tank" "Boat" "Ghetto Cruiser". See above photo.
Dang man that was a pretty hard hit, that highway wall coulda messed us up. Good thing we're in your Tank of a Buick. Gotta luv this car


4) Four of your friends?
Joe

Acronym for Jerks Off Everyday.
This is JOE. Don't mind him. He Jerks Off Everyday.


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nikki

Probably, and by probably I mean it's highly likely that Nikki is the most badass supah fly baller you'll ever meet. She's also a sex fiend who loves Newports and coffee.
Nikki needs no example, she is the example


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Crystal

a freaky, wild, spontaneous, and party girl with a love for life...and sex
At the club I met a crystal


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Trinity
trinity

In Wiccan and Neopagan belief, the triqueta symbolizes the triple aspected goddess (Maiden, Mother, and Crone). Some Christians have protested this "appropriation" of the symbol...however, ironically enough, the original Christian fish symbol was derived from an early symbol of venus, one representing female generative organs- making the triquetra/trinity perfectly appropriate symbol for a Goddess revival. The triquetra/trinity is also considered to represnt the triplicities of mind, body, and soul, as well as the three domains of earth- earth, sea, and sky.
1) In the TV show Charmed three sister's (Prue(1998-2001), Piper, Phoebe, and Paige(2001-) Halliwell)create the Power of Three their symbol is the powerful Trinity/Triquetra.

2) The Trinity/Triquetra is the symbol of Three maiden, mother, and crone.




5) What Should You Be Doing?
Work

A worldwide slave labour organisation used to control modern man and prevent independant thought from occuring in any form. This is the reason it's much harder to make anything of yourself working in creative arts, such as acting and singing - the government sees anyone more popular than them as a threat to their power. It is also an ingenious creation to make placebos such as computers and photocopiers look important to our way of life. Some may argue that the workplace is desigend to build character and learn about teamwork...others prefer to think of it as the perfect place to practise your aiming skills as you throw ball after ball of scrunched up paper into the bin in the corner, then make a little competition out of it with fellow colleagues.
You are here to work, not to have fun!



6) Favorite Food?
Steak

The greatest food known to man. Best when eaten dripping with blood.

"I will go eat steak now with honor."

7) Home town?
Hell


A place where you get poked with pitchforks by red men with horns and goatlegs and listen to the Village People sing for the rest of eternity.
Satan: Welcome to Hell, sinner! *pokes victim*
*man screams*
Out of nowhere: In the Navy...


8) Word to describe yourself?
Heated

mad, to be mad
Yo, im gettin so heated i could punch through a wall

So I now have a mobile client for my LJ... Sweet. So I got inspired to briefly write here about the morning news. With gas prices the way they are, shop at local farmers market as it helps put money back into your community, there aren't huge gas surchages, and you get the freshest food available for your family. Don't think farmers make huge amounts of money its just not true. Sadly family farms are dropping like flies where I live and food costs grow but none of the remaining farmers see any more money for it. Milk is the worst for that. But you can help yourself and others by shopping locally this summer. Ok gotta get ready for work! Oh... And my favorite resturant in the entire world has been ressurected! Chumley's BBQ Hut is open once more in Florida NY on 17A. I fully intend on going when I get paid on friday... Like directly after work... And if you live nearby tell dan beth sent you. I used to be his best customer. I ate there 4 times a week! Peace!

so... posting from my new cell is interesting. there is an actual lj client... but it won't download. I need a media card. lifes been interesting as of late to say the very least. if you want to know more... call me... maybe ill tell.

hello? is anyone here anymore¿ so yeah here's a quicky: got my license... sometimes have use of a car... coming up with some ways to make more money and do what I want. I have a job, its cool. everything is pretty ok actually. soooooo I am taking bookings for the summer to manage... holla if you need me!